This has not been my most productive week. I put that down to the time spent trying to spin a spy story out of thin air. This is what happens when you create intrigue, people like it and they want you to do more. Just a couple of encouraging comments about Back in Service transformed me into a giddy teenager, excited to be liked, while moving well outside of my comfort zone. Before I knew it, I was into some serious research and truly hooked. All other life concerns have been boxed around the need to finish this story, needless to say it’s taking longer than I thought, because creativity demands space. Admittedly, I have enjoyed having dedicated creative focus again. I’ve been doing other things, but as necessary I have stopped to scribble when an idea or task presented itself. Despite the perceived dip in productivity, this focus has made me feel more like a proper writer than usual, which I consider to be a win.
On a completely unrelated note. It has been brought to my attention, that I have a linear approach to life which does not serve the freelance life I want to lead. My reasons for parking or ignoring life’s fundamentals like earning, spirituality, fostering better personal connections and tweeting, range from; not ready, fear, apathy, not funny, to my personal favourite, “I just need to [insert appropriate excuse here] then I’ll have more time.” But more time is promised to no-one, confirmed by the recent news, of a passing acquaintance’s death.
Looking back, I can see an obvious linear path that led to this point in my life and it’s natural to cling to a methodology that has worked. However, I made numerous twists and turns that look much straighter now than they did then. Somewhere I have read that the hero’s journey is linear, whilst the heroine’s journey is circular. If I truly believe this, now, would be the time for me to fully embrace everything my femininity has to offer. Yikes!